Like a tiny piece of grit that has become like a golf ball? With layer after layer of energy born from frustration, anger and despair, due to being unable to shift this repetitive cycle from coming into your life. Its almost like there is one of your multiple personalities actively seeking to prevent another one from being the front alter...
This golf ball of energy has created a 'traditional reaction' when the repeating cycle approaches. You now will think the same, act the same and be the same during your journey through the walls of the schism. Afterwards, no matter what this cycle of events is, you are likely to feel foolish within yourself. Weakened again by the repetitive frustration with yourself.
It can be something simple, like a build up of anger due to technology malfunctioning ... or it can be something as significant as not having the confidence to stand up to a figure of authority, even though figure of authority is committing an act of wrong doing against you. Over and over again, this may occur, even though the face of the figure of authority has changed, and the circumstances around the situation, and the situation itself has changed, the fundamental blueprint of being on the receiving end of the wrong doing, is still the same.
In order to move on from your personal schism, it is vital that you react in a different way to the recycling situation. You will need to feed it a different energy in order to end the sequence. Often it is what you know within your awareness, is what you should be doing. Walking away from the technology calmly without any pent up energy instead of lighting the fury fuse! Standing up to the figure of authority by saying what you fear saying!
There are endless possibilities with regard to what the recycling events can be; some people may have multiple golf balls ... making the task of solving their personal schisms that much harder. The important thing is to make yourself aware you indeed have a recognised repeating cycle of events that spark the golf ball 'traditional reactions' ... once this is the case, the hard part is learning what is needed to prevent the cycle from repeating again. It would help if you could discover the primal cause. When and what was the first time the repeating cycle occurred? What was the situation and what was the wrong reaction by yourself that created the schism in the first place? This could take you back to early school years, or even further back!