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And what of the disruptions ....
There have been few; if any notable disruptions to report over the last few days. I've been aware of occurrences, yes, but nothing substantial enough to report in this ongoing 'magical diary'. Several nights ago a woman's voice was heard from my right to speak 'c'mon Matthew' but I know not who it was or why she should be urging me in this way as I was drifting down into theta state. Moments later another voice was detected calling my name this time to my left. However there was nothing notable during that night. Last night as I was drifting down into sleep I felt a 'disruption beam' touch my legs from the left. I opened my eyes and saw a shady area of the bedroom. However I soon drifted into sleep and had no incidents during the night. But overall it is quiet. Either my handlers have deserted me, aware of my daily reports of all observations; or they are a figment of my imagination which my sub-conscious has managed to 'switch off'; or it is merely a quiet period between activities. The latter is the most likely as there have always been patches of intermittence throughout my life where activity seems to cease before firing up again at a later date. Numerous shadows have been spotted (as always) looming in doorways and in empty rooms over the last few days. This is the normality of a sensitive, which I would not want to stop. It is always a comfort to capture shades from another dimension or frequency. I am grateful to experience those moments and thank the intelligences for their continued presence in my life. They are not disruptions but in fact a comfort . Like now as a shade looms to my right and very close almost as a reaction to sensing my consciousness. Now the presence is pulling gently on my shirt. Close, leaning over me. Disconcerting to many people perhaps, but a wonder I live with. Mirror scrying has not been successful recently. This has always been a source of comfort for me too; I often see recogniseable faces appear in the mirror after my own face has turned misty then disappeared altogether. I can assume the state of awareness where I become aware my mind is conjuring the image of myself in the mirror. My solidity always fades at that point and I become aware of not actually being there. Just a witness looking outwards. Sadly I've not had the state of mind to explore this recently. No doubt there will be further disruptions taking place, I cannot expect the remainder of my life to be disruption free.
There have been few; if any notable disruptions to report over the last few days. I've been aware of occurrences, yes, but nothing substantial enough to report in this ongoing 'magical diary'. Several nights ago a woman's voice was heard from my right to speak 'c'mon Matthew' but I know not who it was or why she should be urging me in this way as I was drifting down into theta state. Moments later another voice was detected calling my name this time to my left. However there was nothing notable during that night. Last night as I was drifting down into sleep I felt a 'disruption beam' touch my legs from the left. I opened my eyes and saw a shady area of the bedroom. However I soon drifted into sleep and had no incidents during the night. But overall it is quiet. Either my handlers have deserted me, aware of my daily reports of all observations; or they are a figment of my imagination which my sub-conscious has managed to 'switch off'; or it is merely a quiet period between activities. The latter is the most likely as there have always been patches of intermittence throughout my life where activity seems to cease before firing up again at a later date. Numerous shadows have been spotted (as always) looming in doorways and in empty rooms over the last few days. This is the normality of a sensitive, which I would not want to stop. It is always a comfort to capture shades from another dimension or frequency. I am grateful to experience those moments and thank the intelligences for their continued presence in my life. They are not disruptions but in fact a comfort . Like now as a shade looms to my right and very close almost as a reaction to sensing my consciousness. Now the presence is pulling gently on my shirt. Close, leaning over me. Disconcerting to many people perhaps, but a wonder I live with. Mirror scrying has not been successful recently. This has always been a source of comfort for me too; I often see recogniseable faces appear in the mirror after my own face has turned misty then disappeared altogether. I can assume the state of awareness where I become aware my mind is conjuring the image of myself in the mirror. My solidity always fades at that point and I become aware of not actually being there. Just a witness looking outwards. Sadly I've not had the state of mind to explore this recently. No doubt there will be further disruptions taking place, I cannot expect the remainder of my life to be disruption free. 