It took place again. In the early hours of this morning. Without any preceding warning (as always) I was subjected to another fearful episode. One I can still only recall, but I KNOW took place. One which I was able to force my physical body to activate its vocal chords whilst I was out of its 'protection'; whilst I was out in the other dimensions as a mere possession of a higher force. I know at the 'time' I made my body cry out 'help', 'help me' ... took an incredible effort to do this. I was gripped with complete fear (why?) as it was taking place. I have no conscious memory of the events ... which is always the case ... but I am left with a tremendous dread of what was discussed and what was implicated. I woke this morning with the experience initially forgotten; but Kristine immediately told me 'you were talking in your sleep last night' when I woke up.
'Oh yes? What did I say?'
'You were moaning for me to help you'
It all came flooding back, 'yes, I needed you to wake me up. It was happening again.'
'I was going to. But I didn't know what reaction I'd get so I left you.'
I wish she had woken me. I would have been released from the torment I know took place. I have been left feeling imminent dread. Feeling that life is about to change; almost immediately. I know something has been altered within me. Old memories are active again. Recollections of 'the old country' and it has awakened my 'sleeping' heart chakra. I am so emotional today. I know something is happening.
I'm left with the feeling that 'they' can strike whenever they choose. They are in control of me (us) and we are merely their playthings. Chess pieces on a board we fail to see. They adjust our awareness whenever they wish and like marionettes we walk stiffly to whatever beat they wish us to play.
I'm perhaps being prophetic at this point, but in the coming weeks (months) my life is about to change dramatically as I walk to an adjusted beat ... because of what occurred this morning.
